Day 7/365 Perpetual Thinking

Perpetual Thinking.

It's a week into my blog and I began to get writer's block. But, then I thought about it… I'm way too smart to not have something to elaborate on. “Not being able to think” is impossible. In that case, it is just a lack of motivation to use your mind. Your imagination is so vast and it is an insult, to God himself, when you don't use what he gave you in the fullness thereof. Everybody has this one thing that is completely free to use. And, it is the most powerful thing known to man. That's why people in control have power. They know how to use what was free to gain what isn't. Intelligence for money? Fair trade, I guess. An idle mind is the Devil’s playground. People purposely harbor in places where they can take over. Remember, oppression is only allowed where it is let in. Control is completely your head. Once you shut down and start forgetting to think off of what you know is fact, you become vulnerable. What's worse than being naive? When the wrong people sees it in you. They then begin to leech onto you, literally. In every way, they will suck what they need out of you until you knock them off. If you're always on your toes and thinking, no one can touch you. Therefore, no one can take advantage of any weaknesses you may have. Just THINK of ways to keep yourself away from what's toxic. People don't attempt to succeed, because they don't tap into their mind. Others have ruined their minds by what I call “time lapse”. Which is just the theory that there are people out here ignorant simply because it is too late in their corruption to turn back. Valuable time that could've been used towards learning, adding complexity to the way they think and growth is now forever gone. And I keep telling you time is money. Use what you have efficiently. The one true money maker is your train of thought. It'll take you anywhere, anytime. I try keeping a steadfast mind. Do things to open your mind. I like to reach into myself, find what I like and indulge in the insight I get. Research who you are and the people who have come before you. Find out about the people you cross paths with. Make it a habit to educate yourself daily, because momentum keeps the world spinning.
Ru is Dai 🌸

Day 8/365 Manifest Destiny.

Manifest Destiny

Google lists Manifest Destiny as the 19th-century doctrine or belief that the expansion of the US throughout the American continents was both justified and inevitable. See how baseline history is constructed through white supremacy? Anyways, a manifestation is a proclamation. It is defined as a symptom of an action or event that embodies a concept. Europeans took that concept and built so much from it. America was taken over because some men had the idea to occupy another territory. Imagine what you can do just by claiming what you want. The point of day 8 is to open your eyes to the importance of getting yours, because they got theirs. Also, I have to point out the beauty of time. Whatever is meant to be will play out for you over time. I am a firm believer in karma or reaping what you sew.As well as the prophecy that the last will be first and the first last. Think of it as if you control 75% of what happens to you. The breakdown is: 2/4 of what you consciously do & 1/4 of what you take it as. The other 25% is inevitable. Live life knowing you can put forth whatever amount of effort you want to accomplish what you need. With that comes whatever destiny you triggered combined with whatever proclaimed. How did you get to where you are now? 100% because of what the past “you” has done. Be conscious of every step you take, because they LITERALLY ALWAYS take you somewhere whether it be good or bad. No matter where you want to be, whatever you have stepped into is where you will land. So, what will you do to make it where you want? What will you do to get it? Be mindful not to cross someone, but eliminate whatever and whoever is in your way. You have come to terms that what life hands you will happen. What I suggest is presume the best outcomes for yourself and live it.
My disclaimer: Nothing in my blogs works without balance. Remember everything is appropriate in it’s place.
Ru is Dai 🌸

Day 9/365. Staying Aware.

Staying Aware

When I was a young girl, I used to feel so small in this big world. As I grew older I came to terms that this is true. I acknowledge what was going on around me. As a child growing up in America, I felt protected by the stars and stripes I was pledging to. Time began to tick and whatever I thought I knew was revealed to be something different. I came to an age where what the people around me were saying and doing became clear. The dividing lines of racism had started to be made visible to me. The equality I was promised was explained by those who really understood what the compromise was when it came to having dark skin. At one point, I was infatuated with the idea of being a celebrity just like any other 7 years old. I became so caught up with how people like Beyoncé was living, but who could blame me? It was an obsession with the things I saw on TV. I was glued to the screen, seeing EXACTLY what they wanted me to see. Eventually, I stopped wanting the things that takes your soul to obtain or purchase. Everyone has to release the attachment to things like money, cars, and worldly delicacies in order to not be oppressed. My upbringing was humble. I lived in a decent size country home on about an acre and a half of land. Being a preacher's kid, I was so obsessed with what my parents tried to protect me from. I could barely watch BET, listen to secular music or go out consistently with my friends. But, of course, I managed to expose myself to all these things. It was a good thing they knew what it took to keep me innocent. My curiosity made it hard for a lot of valuable lessons to get through to me. Everything happens in due time, though. It wasn't until after I stopped watching TV and started living out the realities when I became “woke”. It was late in the game, but my progression happens at a vapid rate. My mother told stories of her encounters in life that made me think about who I am, who I come from and who is really for me or against me. She would often say “To the government, you're just a social security number.” CORRELATION. She also taught me never rely on government assistance. Have my own, get my own. Feed myself. You have to in order to know what you are putting into you. I advise you to reach past the source. Who is the supplying the source? And if the source is original, what makes up the source? Is your medium invalid or corrupt? Make it your business to dissect whatever is in front of you. Know what you signed up for. PLEASE.
Ru is Dai 🌸

Ode to my People

Ode to my People.

Over the years, I've grown up with a lot of complex personalities around me. I've learned to cope with respecting others. I have always wanted people to cling to me. This comes with a lot of exposing yourself to bullshit standards. When I moved to Richmond Hill, being the new girl was fun only because everyone was interested in finding out who I was. I also was inclined to know what new friends I would make. My biggest problem in school was my struggle to balance socializing and paying attention to academics. I always mention the wise words of my mother and father in my blogs. This particular case, they would always say, “These people you call your friends aren't your friends. They don't mean you well” Hearing this would often upset me. How could it be that these people I am making memories with now, not want to have this forever? It seems like the more I was around people, the more I was sucked into things like drama and fights. As many will and have found out, after graduation people who was assigned to sit next to you in 11th grade Trigonometry will no longer be someone you hold conversation with daily. A lot of the girls I laughed and partied with are not next to me now. The group of people I consider my friends are hand crafted and altered when need be. There's Ty & Nique, my fellow dark skins. I've known them since 5th grade. I made a promise with them on New Year's Day 2016 that we would stay true to each other. They are what I like to call my Soul Sisters. I take our relationship seriously, because these girls have only shown me growth over the past trillion years. It has been nothing less than a beautiful thing watching someone grow with you. Challenging, but still a great example of friendship. Coming into Georgia Southern, I met some incredible people. We started out in the apps Twitter and GroupMe. Hella encounters, platonic or violent, drew us together. As a small ethnic group of freshman from the class of 2018, we found out a lot about each other and ourselves. Tam and Kaysie are a great representations of where distinction and hard work can get you. These young ladies only bring good vibes around me. Strive to have people who are doing good things around you. Be like how you want those around you to be. Uplift your suhs. Can’t forget about the guys in my life that has had an impact. Ko and Tedwardo have been there for me in some of my darkest hours, uplifting me with good gas. Frank was the first to show me sincere love. I also had a guy to expose me to another type of fun and even this weird love. He's Nigerian with a cool name, Tos. Know just where to hold them at. Understand that everyone in your life deserves their own relationship with you. Respect it. I have this one friend. Her name is Trinity and I hold her in a special place in my heart. Only because I get her. Ever since I actually understood who she was by listening to what she had to say. I was around her a lot. I peeped how she moved and saw her heart is gold. I have a beautiful girl, Lo. I can call her my own. She is the one who understands me and cares about my wellbeing. I am blessed to call the people around me token. Of course I haven't mentioned everyone who has shined light on my life, but you know who you are. These token ones will be great to seek in the future when it comes to networking or even just vacationing and catching up. Connecting with others is a beautiful thing about life. Perfect how you connect.
Ru is Dai. 🌸

Portrait, the poem.

Portrait

You've filled me up with so much truth, but I had to dig it out of the lies.
Does it count as you being there if it's only when I close my eyes?
The blood in my veins turn into a hazard. Because, with you, we are one.
Am I enduring this for you or me?
Can this fight even be won?
The art of life is love.
It’s abstract, like what you've showed me.
I should've looked away, knowing I could've.
You have your flaws like any other Saint.
Do you dare frame the massacre you paint?
Ru is Dai 🌸

Day 12/365 Running.

Running.

One question right now.
Where are you trying to go?
A lot of people are walking life's journey with no mission and no destination. Some will say they are taking what life hands them, but I say it's settling. In order to get everything you possibly can you have to exert that amount of energy. With me, I have made up my mind. I see what I want to do with my life. Only because I know if I just sit here and do nothing I will receive bare minimum. In my shoes, going back home with my parents to soak up their free air isn't hard but that's not what I want. Being counter-productive is not me utilizing the gifts I was given.  I envision myself owning multiple properties and businesses. Reaching that starts now. Since I came to terms with who I am, I started working towards living out the life I have planned for myself.  Being conscious of your abilities is vital, but you'll never know where pushing harder will take you unless you give it a shot. As soon as you dedicate your energy and time to something, the results start pouring in. Without failure, there is no success. A slip up is not the end of the race. The end of your journey is up to you or whenever you are called to die. Whichever comes first. Exhaust all options to get your outcome. Never stop running.
Ru is Dai. 🌸

Day 13/365

Friday the 13th

I look up in the sky and there's a full moon. I've been working so hard all day with my photography, that I missed posted my blog before midnight. I don't know if I believe in the label attached to Friday the 13th. BUT, I will have to blame my tardy post on that. Lol I'm still dedicated to spilling my thoughts out for whoever is looking. There is a reason I am writing these blogs. Maybe one day I will touch someone with the words I say. Might even get lucky and come up one becoming discovered. If you know the words of prayer, please pray my strength in the Lord.
Ru is Dai 🌸

Day 14/365

Money and Me.

The LOVE for the money is what 1 Timothy 6:10 says is the root of all evil. The printed paper holds only whatever power we give it. When you exert all of your time and energy into something repetitively, you in fact are satisfied with what the results deliver and find the need to continue to pursue that thing. If you don't put in work, it won't come. What are you working for? How much time are you putting in? Is it worth it? I often see on the local news incidents where people are murdered over simply materialistic things that some man gave much value to. On a larger scale, the reason why leaders of these large countries hold power is because they're all Aristocrats. Government has overtaken the concept of bartering using it against every human as soon as we exit the womb. It cost to live and die. If I make up a game, of course I'm likely to win every time. I refuse to be money motivated, because there's so much more to live for. I do not loath for the large scale power money gives the most undeserving individuals. Do not get me wrong, I want to be wealthy while owning properties and companies but I will not lose who I am chasing something so superficial. I can't let my days consist of oppression because of paper and coins. I also vow to live life not being a slave to someone's clock. If you have a knack for something, the money will come when you practice and perfect your crafts. I intend on doing what I love while making money instead of working hard for little money to enjoy what I like. Make sure you meet in the middle even when it comes to go getting it and patiently waiting for what's meant to come to you. The fiat based system will consume you if you let it. Or, you can simply grasp onto what's going on around you and play the game smoothly.
Ru is Dai 🌸

Women Down to Me

Women Down to Me.
Lol let me explain something.
The people in my life who have impacted me the most are women. My beautiful mother raised me to be this great human I am. She did it with the help of my grandmother, who instilled in me values. I was molded into someone who was etched with distinction. I remember seeing in the beginning of my days, my aunt Barbara was the example of a pretty young woman graduating high school with so much life. I had my cousin Tameka, who was always popping up with her beautiful smile. I idolized these young ladies who sang to Destiny's Child and styled their permed hair like Aaliyah. Now, they both are strong grown women who are raising the kids of our future. There were times growing up, when I didn't know anyone but the people around me raising me. Krystal and Janet both were both two of my favorite people church. True definition of family and I always wanted to see them. Of course you had my uncle Yogi but his better half, my lovely aunt Shana. She was right next to my mom during her pregnancy. Their relationship made it almost impossible not to fall down a generation. Meisha was all I knew as a sister. With her boisterous personality yet big heart, I love everything about her. She toughened me up and showed me a lot. Thank God for my keeper. I remember wanting to go to Hinesville with my Aunt Tessa . Oh how I loved hearing her fuss and Diane & Diamond fight to a bloody pulp (I'm totally joking). You know I love the beautiful and headstrong role models you have all become. My godmother Tomeka made my heart warm whenever I was blessed with her presence. I adored her and my mom's relationship. My sister Mica taught me to stay with mind and eyes wide open and Ashley keeps giving me life with the lookssss. Ashley's a wonderful example of how you should treat your body and focus on life. I have great friends around me, like Niq , that I can grow with and encourage along this journey. Kristen radiates love whenever I speak to her and people like that you keep close. I'm so happy to have Lo by my side cheering me on. And I will make sure I do the same. I pray every day to be the luminous woman god intended, because I have positive energy around me. I have to do this for Faith. I have to do this for me. Because those who have contributed to life wants to see more life. Let's reap what we have sewn, ladies. Love you all. 😙
Ru is Dai 🌸

My Turn Day 29/365

My Turn

I don't want to lose friendships over Trump's reign, but I will not stand for people who sit quiet when there's injustice let alone support racist concepts. When you play the seed, the offspring will show your work. Put in bad, you will get less than satisfactory results. We will see how we played our part in a better nation after it is all said and done. I will continue to use my time and energy to exploit the truth and build toward something deeply rooted in love, equality and prosperity.
Ru is Dai🌸

Must read. Day 31/365

https://www.washingtonpost.com/posteverything/wp/2017/01/27/in-venezuela-we-couldnt-stop-chavez-dont-make-the-same-mistakes-we-did/?tid=ss_tw&utm_term=.e196bf1832fd

Atmospheric pressure. Day 32/365

What's are you putting into the atmosphere?
Saw this truck, earlier. What message are you putting into the atmosphere? A story of hope and change? Or the sad tale of a whole nation being in chains. The chains that won't be release until we erase lines, tear down walls and tie our flags together.
Ru is Dai 🌸

Regal. Day 33/365

Regal.
Royalty.
My skin. Don't forget you are kings and queens. No one can so strip you of your birth rights. God never forgets and he promised the first will be last and the last will be first. Amina, Queen of Zaria. She ruled Nigeria and was a worrior. Shaka Zulu, a South African king had some of the toughest African fighters. Osei Kofi Tutu and Yaa Asantewa; Ashanti Kingdom (Ghana) The Ashanti was highly political, wealthy, and powerful. Their source of wealth came from the large salt and gold deposits mined in their region, which they traded WITHIN the African Trade Market. Can you BELIEVE Yaa Asantewa was known for fighting off British colonizers until she was shipped away? Makeda, the queen of Sheba, appeared in the bible as the epitome of excellence. Open your eyes. The power is within. It has been there and placed by GOD.
http://answersafrica.com/5-powerful-african-queens-history.html
Ru is Dai🌸

What I Envision Day 34/365

What I Envision
I want to make sure in, 3 or so years, I'm in the perfect position. I want to start having my kids and focusing on me and them. Those with positive vibes are welcome to experience this beautiful growth and transformation with me. I envision living my life and enjoying it. Not struggling and having all my loved ones and best friends around. I don't necessarily want to settle with a man and commit my life to that lifestyle. I want to marry my best friend. So be it if we aren't traditional. I want a partner who reflects great values and wants complete and utter equality. The father of my children will love me as his babys' mother. Just give me the baby and leave me be. Lol I don't need you but you're welcome. Regardless, I'm going to be straight. Getting my real estate license is going to be nice and graduating from GSU is a must. My grind will pay for a nice life with my family. I plan on continuing school with a little one under my arm. Why? Because my education will NEVER stop. Lol that as an oxymoron. Anyways, ladies focus on you and plan smart. Fellas, communicate and know what you in for. Aim for excellence even if it's not the most conventional why of going about things. Love your life. You only know one you. Don't be so serious, but know what to take serious. Conquer what you need in order to raise a nation of a excellent youth. That's the goal.
Ru is Dai 🌸

Day 38/365 Today in Black History.

This day of black history,  I will use Nina Simone as my example. 😊
My favorite quotes of hers;
Unyielding: "You don't have to live next to me, just give me equality."
Magical: "To me, we are the most beautiful creatures in the world—black people. So, my job is to make them more curious about where they came from and their own identity and pride in that identity."
Courageous: "How does royalty stomp around in the mud and still walk with grace? Most people are afraid to be as honest as she lived—she was not at odds with the times. Times was at odds with her. If we were living in an environment that allowed us to be exactly who we are, you're always in congress with yourself. The challenge is how do we fit in in the world that we're around. Are we allowed to be exactly who we are?"

Ru is Dai 🌸

Day 51/365 Why I am a Bitch

Why I am a bitch.

I have returned to this blog to explain one of my many fabulous character traits. My ability to be a bitch. Looking at it from an optimistic angle, I will start out with saying this side is well balanced with being down to earth. As a jit, I had that little sassy nature to me. I've asked my mother and my sister and they said I was never really a bad child but one to always be into something. And I had a big mouth, granted, I was growing up as I still am. In my head, my life was a breeze. My mother and grandmother gave me everything I needed and anything I wanted I would get. I remember living life through the eyes of young Daijah. I was always running around the house with my long twist bouncing behind me. It was around middle school my joy slowly started becoming snatched away. My hyperactivity was halted by a big black hand always pushing buttons and rubbing me the wrong way. Often I searched for answers and was rudely confronted by a lot of what I found. Even when minding my own business, I was assaulted with life. When I moved to Richmond hill, I was put in the perfect little environment. But, I still felt different. Disconnected. I didn't like the typical things that came with growing up; drama, picking a pathway, the pressure to fit in and boys…. BUT I couldn't help being sucked into that cycle of fuckery. It would anger me when I couldn't figure out why. Years later and surviving many vicious mental, physical and emotional hardships I'm still thriving as if I am untouched. I know how vital it is to keep my light bright keeping toxic people and things from around me. As a bitch, I let no man nor woman throw dirt NEAR my entity. As a bitch, I fight for what matters and never exert energy on things the don't. As a bitch, I never have to worry about anyone or anything because nothing gets past my imaginary secretary who filters trash trying to enter my life (she's also a bitch). I’m a bitch because all I know is me and I've been standing behind this person everyone walks past. But I'm a bitch because I do not care about pointless matters, all I see is my manifestation. I will explode. Hitting licks on REAL unbelievable financial success and having a wholesome life. Can't fight that, even if you tried. So, don't get me wrong, I'm a bitch.
Ru is Dai🌸

Reign Day 92/365

I am bleeding,
It's a life of death.
So, I become numb.
The fight becomes natural.

Autopilot.

I tap into the sun,
Eat of the fruit
To energize and educate.
I thirst,
But thank God I can drink.
My cup runneth over.
There's praise in my pain.
This strength that is raging within me
Fuels my shining light.
It will rain, but never will I drown.
I've secured my righteous seat.
-Reign

Ru is Dai 