Day 7/365 Perpetual Thinking

Perpetual Thinking.

It's a week into my blog and I began to get writer's block. But, then I thought about it… I'm way too smart to not have something to elaborate on. “Not being able to think” is impossible. In that case, it is just a lack of motivation to use your mind. Your imagination is so vast and it is an insult, to God himself, when you don't use what he gave you in the fullness thereof. Everybody has this one thing that is completely free to use. And, it is the most powerful thing known to man. That's why people in control have power. They know how to use what was free to gain what isn't. Intelligence for money? Fair trade, I guess. An idle mind is the Devil’s playground. People purposely harbor in places where they can take over. Remember, oppression is only allowed where it is let in. Control is completely your head. Once you shut down and start forgetting to think off of what you know is fact, you become vulnerable. What's worse than being naive? When the wrong people sees it in you. They then begin to leech onto you, literally. In every way, they will suck what they need out of you until you knock them off. If you're always on your toes and thinking, no one can touch you. Therefore, no one can take advantage of any weaknesses you may have. Just THINK of ways to keep yourself away from what's toxic. People don't attempt to succeed, because they don't tap into their mind. Others have ruined their minds by what I call “time lapse”. Which is just the theory that there are people out here ignorant simply because it is too late in their corruption to turn back. Valuable time that could've been used towards learning, adding complexity to the way they think and growth is now forever gone. And I keep telling you time is money. Use what you have efficiently. The one true money maker is your train of thought. It'll take you anywhere, anytime. I try keeping a steadfast mind. Do things to open your mind. I like to reach into myself, find what I like and indulge in the insight I get. Research who you are and the people who have come before you. Find out about the people you cross paths with. Make it a habit to educate yourself daily, because momentum keeps the world spinning.
Ru is Dai 🌸

Day 8/365 Manifest Destiny.

Manifest Destiny

Google lists Manifest Destiny as the 19th-century doctrine or belief that the expansion of the US throughout the American continents was both justified and inevitable. See how baseline history is constructed through white supremacy? Anyways, a manifestation is a proclamation. It is defined as a symptom of an action or event that embodies a concept. Europeans took that concept and built so much from it. America was taken over because some men had the idea to occupy another territory. Imagine what you can do just by claiming what you want. The point of day 8 is to open your eyes to the importance of getting yours, because they got theirs. Also, I have to point out the beauty of time. Whatever is meant to be will play out for you over time. I am a firm believer in karma or reaping what you sew.As well as the prophecy that the last will be first and the first last. Think of it as if you control 75% of what happens to you. The breakdown is: 2/4 of what you consciously do & 1/4 of what you take it as. The other 25% is inevitable. Live life knowing you can put forth whatever amount of effort you want to accomplish what you need. With that comes whatever destiny you triggered combined with whatever proclaimed. How did you get to where you are now? 100% because of what the past “you” has done. Be conscious of every step you take, because they LITERALLY ALWAYS take you somewhere whether it be good or bad. No matter where you want to be, whatever you have stepped into is where you will land. So, what will you do to make it where you want? What will you do to get it? Be mindful not to cross someone, but eliminate whatever and whoever is in your way. You have come to terms that what life hands you will happen. What I suggest is presume the best outcomes for yourself and live it.
My disclaimer: Nothing in my blogs works without balance. Remember everything is appropriate in it’s place.
Ru is Dai 🌸

Day 9/365. Staying Aware.

Staying Aware

When I was a young girl, I used to feel so small in this big world. As I grew older I came to terms that this is true. I acknowledge what was going on around me. As a child growing up in America, I felt protected by the stars and stripes I was pledging to. Time began to tick and whatever I thought I knew was revealed to be something different. I came to an age where what the people around me were saying and doing became clear. The dividing lines of racism had started to be made visible to me. The equality I was promised was explained by those who really understood what the compromise was when it came to having dark skin. At one point, I was infatuated with the idea of being a celebrity just like any other 7 years old. I became so caught up with how people like Beyoncé was living, but who could blame me? It was an obsession with the things I saw on TV. I was glued to the screen, seeing EXACTLY what they wanted me to see. Eventually, I stopped wanting the things that takes your soul to obtain or purchase. Everyone has to release the attachment to things like money, cars, and worldly delicacies in order to not be oppressed. My upbringing was humble. I lived in a decent size country home on about an acre and a half of land. Being a preacher's kid, I was so obsessed with what my parents tried to protect me from. I could barely watch BET, listen to secular music or go out consistently with my friends. But, of course, I managed to expose myself to all these things. It was a good thing they knew what it took to keep me innocent. My curiosity made it hard for a lot of valuable lessons to get through to me. Everything happens in due time, though. It wasn't until after I stopped watching TV and started living out the realities when I became “woke”. It was late in the game, but my progression happens at a vapid rate. My mother told stories of her encounters in life that made me think about who I am, who I come from and who is really for me or against me. She would often say “To the government, you're just a social security number.” CORRELATION. She also taught me never rely on government assistance. Have my own, get my own. Feed myself. You have to in order to know what you are putting into you. I advise you to reach past the source. Who is the supplying the source? And if the source is original, what makes up the source? Is your medium invalid or corrupt? Make it your business to dissect whatever is in front of you. Know what you signed up for. PLEASE.
Ru is Dai 🌸

Ode to my People

Ode to my People.

Over the years, I've grown up with a lot of complex personalities around me. I've learned to cope with respecting others. I have always wanted people to cling to me. This comes with a lot of exposing yourself to bullshit standards. When I moved to Richmond Hill, being the new girl was fun only because everyone was interested in finding out who I was. I also was inclined to know what new friends I would make. My biggest problem in school was my struggle to balance socializing and paying attention to academics. I always mention the wise words of my mother and father in my blogs. This particular case, they would always say, “These people you call your friends aren't your friends. They don't mean you well” Hearing this would often upset me. How could it be that these people I am making memories with now, not want to have this forever? It seems like the more I was around people, the more I was sucked into things like drama and fights. As many will and have found out, after graduation people who was assigned to sit next to you in 11th grade Trigonometry will no longer be someone you hold conversation with daily. A lot of the girls I laughed and partied with are not next to me now. The group of people I consider my friends are hand crafted and altered when need be. There's Ty & Nique, my fellow dark skins. I've known them since 5th grade. I made a promise with them on New Year's Day 2016 that we would stay true to each other. They are what I like to call my Soul Sisters. I take our relationship seriously, because these girls have only shown me growth over the past trillion years. It has been nothing less than a beautiful thing watching someone grow with you. Challenging, but still a great example of friendship. Coming into Georgia Southern, I met some incredible people. We started out in the apps Twitter and GroupMe. Hella encounters, platonic or violent, drew us together. As a small ethnic group of freshman from the class of 2018, we found out a lot about each other and ourselves. Tam and Kaysie are a great representations of where distinction and hard work can get you. These young ladies only bring good vibes around me. Strive to have people who are doing good things around you. Be like how you want those around you to be. Uplift your suhs. Can’t forget about the guys in my life that has had an impact. Ko and Tedwardo have been there for me in some of my darkest hours, uplifting me with good gas. Frank was the first to show me sincere love. I also had a guy to expose me to another type of fun and even this weird love. He's Nigerian with a cool name, Tos. Know just where to hold them at. Understand that everyone in your life deserves their own relationship with you. Respect it. I have this one friend. Her name is Trinity and I hold her in a special place in my heart. Only because I get her. Ever since I actually understood who she was by listening to what she had to say. I was around her a lot. I peeped how she moved and saw her heart is gold. I have a beautiful girl, Lo. I can call her my own. She is the one who understands me and cares about my wellbeing. I am blessed to call the people around me token. Of course I haven't mentioned everyone who has shined light on my life, but you know who you are. These token ones will be great to seek in the future when it comes to networking or even just vacationing and catching up. Connecting with others is a beautiful thing about life. Perfect how you connect.
Ru is Dai. 🌸

Portrait, the poem.

Portrait

You've filled me up with so much truth, but I had to dig it out of the lies.
Does it count as you being there if it's only when I close my eyes?
The blood in my veins turn into a hazard. Because, with you, we are one.
Am I enduring this for you or me?
Can this fight even be won?
The art of life is love.
It’s abstract, like what you've showed me.
I should've looked away, knowing I could've.
You have your flaws like any other Saint.
Do you dare frame the massacre you paint?
Ru is Dai 🌸

Day 12/365 Running.

Running.

One question right now.
Where are you trying to go?
A lot of people are walking life's journey with no mission and no destination. Some will say they are taking what life hands them, but I say it's settling. In order to get everything you possibly can you have to exert that amount of energy. With me, I have made up my mind. I see what I want to do with my life. Only because I know if I just sit here and do nothing I will receive bare minimum. In my shoes, going back home with my parents to soak up their free air isn't hard but that's not what I want. Being counter-productive is not me utilizing the gifts I was given.  I envision myself owning multiple properties and businesses. Reaching that starts now. Since I came to terms with who I am, I started working towards living out the life I have planned for myself.  Being conscious of your abilities is vital, but you'll never know where pushing harder will take you unless you give it a shot. As soon as you dedicate your energy and time to something, the results start pouring in. Without failure, there is no success. A slip up is not the end of the race. The end of your journey is up to you or whenever you are called to die. Whichever comes first. Exhaust all options to get your outcome. Never stop running.
Ru is Dai. 🌸

Day 13/365

Friday the 13th

I look up in the sky and there's a full moon. I've been working so hard all day with my photography, that I missed posted my blog before midnight. I don't know if I believe in the label attached to Friday the 13th. BUT, I will have to blame my tardy post on that. Lol I'm still dedicated to spilling my thoughts out for whoever is looking. There is a reason I am writing these blogs. Maybe one day I will touch someone with the words I say. Might even get lucky and come up one becoming discovered. If you know the words of prayer, please pray my strength in the Lord.
Ru is Dai 🌸